20150406

The death of this little spark


by Iseiya Jun

The day we met was a warm spring day...
You're a little sunshine in a grey dawn.. yes, you 
and your subconcious softness that creeps beneath the morning breeze..
It's a little late to withdraw attention when the whistle is blown...
Desperation dragged into your direction with no halt..
as an effort of stopping a rain pour,
Turning off a raging flames,
Shutting off the flashing thunder,
Hold the hope, Dear!
Care to share this growing pain?
Too late... it's a white flag.
It's a surrender, it's sad and stuck.
Can I stay a little while?
Despite the heart that bleeds the truth, you are a gift of rainbow after the storm..
that doesn't stay for good~
As woods turn to ashes..
Sugar dissolves in solitude..
Dew vapours in a sunny wave hello..
The night suffocates the day..
The way your hands slipped from my grip..
I see you drift away..
and the end emerges our way.
No one to blame on the shattered heart, my Dear..
though you had your part..
on the death of this little spark.
Like innocent warmth spread..
on top of a freshly baked of soul.
Good morning, Heartbreak!

20150404

Blurred Feeling

I don't know what has been going on with me lately.. I think the gloomy wave has done another strike on me.. Booo..

I know a guy.. we are from two different world with no connection in whatsoever.. It just that he managed to be on my daily routine.. (thanks to messenger creator) but yeah.. I got to know him little by little.

One day he sent me a few songs that he likes most.. well in my glossary of musical experience, I call those genre as suicidal songs due to slow beat, sad lyric and soft voice of the singers. LOL. No offense intended. Some of the songs are:
1. Starry Starry Night
2. Kiss Goodbye - Wang Leehom
Etc

I have this emo side of me who likes this kinda songs, so we immediately clicked. I must say I love his company most of the time. He is a very kind guy, very polite and soft hearted. I heard sooo many stories about people impressed by his kindness and helpful-ness.. There you go.. my soft spot for kind-hearted guy. Hahaha.. I think I'm a good person at heart so I'm glad meeting another good person. ^^ #notaselfpraise

Things were just okay.. I thought we could stay like this.. be friends and all.. but I kinda feel he withdrew himself and took distance.. I feel like.. umm.. okay.. it's okay. Sometimes friendship stray.. right? There was absolutely nothing happened.. at least not on my side.

Anyway.. it was a pleasant time to get to know each other.. we really had those funny moments.. I was happy. As usual, happiness must find another door to knock and apparently it's time for it to visit another "house". I dislike goodbyes but this time also, I learn how to let go...

Dear You...
I'm thankful for given the chance to get to know you.. I will cherish those moments. I just wanna let you know that you made me feel thankful for so many reasons.. every single day. It's gonnabe different from now on but it's okay. I have survived before and I'm sure this too shall pass quickly. I wish you only the best. May you meet good people, best people who won't hurt you and make you happy as you have always been... If there is another life after this, I would love to meet you again with different situations and place. Maybe as neighbors or siblings, or classmates? I personally don't believe in reincarnation, yet none of us know... so I guess it won't hurt to throw some hopes? ^^ I'm glad we met.
Yours truly,
a friend