Is it possible for people who never met each other to miss each other? Maybe...?
The idea seems random and illogical but it could be, no?

I miss you...

No. Not you who left silently and cowardly.. It's you over there. Yes, you! I miss you ^^

Now that we discuss this, which one do you think is better, to meet and then to separate (there's always possibilities with various reasons) or not to meet at all? You... what do you think?



Kimura-sama (Part 2)

I should thank you for a lot of things...
What can I say? My teenage years are filled with you as someone I truly adore..
The first drama was Ordinary People.. You were shining a little too bright for a supporting role~ it was really hard to find your name because I did not even have the access to internet.. I had to figure it out with magazine or I dunno..
On my 2nd grade of senior high, we met again at Long Vacation drama. You were even more shining than before. I guess I fell in love with you hard..
How did I know? I remembered being all gloomy for the whole weeks after 10th episode when you made love with that old lady.. my heart broke to pieces.
I guess I really had no ability to differ reality vs imaginary~ Could you tell that at that time I did not even know what sex it.. but I saw you under a blanket and topless.. I guess you shoved those "knowledge" to me without my consent...
Ah Kimura-sama.. how could you~~~
But you still gorgeous tho.. all the things that I want in a man.. physically, I mean..
You are around 178, not too tall.. enough to surpass my height~ Your body is slim but somehow you still managed to be manly even without the obvious fitness centre molded body.. You look more like a musician to me (you will make a good rock band front liner, gain lots of popularity from lots of groupies) and I was glad to find out that you play music instruments and you composed songs as well.. and of course SMAP~♥

Now probably some people call you Uncle but to me you still are the same... the way you smile.. the way your eyes shine... they just never change~ Can I say you age with grace..
Remember my promise to marry you? Even if you ask me to marry you now, I would be more than glad to say yes.. This is crazy but yeah... you are my ideal type crumpled into one person.. Bear with it, will you?

Btw, do you have doppleganger somewhere that I can marry to? LOL



APPRECIATION NOTE: Rurouni Kenshin: The Legend Ends (Part 1)

If you know me, you will know my love towards the anime Samurai X. It was like the gate to my appreciation towards Japanese culture and its "products". I remember pretty vividly that time when me and a few of classmates (whom one of them is still in contact with me until now regarding this J-stuffs) were so crazy in love with the anime and we would go head over heels every morning, discussing what was happening on the yesterday's episode. Beside the anime itself, we were also crazy for the opening and ending songs, a.k.a the OSTs. If they change it, we will just look around to find the lyrics~ How fun! At that time we did not use too much internet and we just solely relied on magazines. It was a wonderful time. The waiting to watch the anime aired every afternoon and all the fuss around it. I even got a beautiful poster of the movie from a very good friend of mine who kindly gave it to me for a birthday present and God knows until when that poster was actually hanging on my wall in my room... I think my Mom put it down when I was in Korea for straight two years (Mom always tried to throw away my stuffs when I am gone T_T). Samurai X, in this case Himura Kenshin, has created so much beautiful memories for me during my Senior High School, which is why when the Live Action is being played here in Indonesia I just promised to myself that I gotta watch it as much as I can. I watch this particular movie three times! I just love it that much~!

Back to the movie The Legend Ends~ No words can describe the overwhelmed feeling when I saw it for the first time. The first time I got a seat in the middle. It was really in the middle... guess what? I got dizzy watching the fighting scenes... For better enjoyment, back seats are the best, no matter which sides are you in (left, right, center doesn't really matter).

Now I would just write the impressions that I have in the movie randomly... because in that way, it will be more enjoyable, right? For the first thing, I want to write about something light...

1. Hiten Mitsurugi and Amakakeru Ryu no Hirameki
I will be honest. I always thought that these two are different technique, to be exact the latter is the former's development. That is actually not true. The explanation is here CLICK, from the movie itself I have a scene that really stunned me because it's uber cool. When Kenshin slashed Shishio with Amakakeru Ryu no Hirameki, Shishio looked like he was caught off guard.. he murmured "Hiten Mitsurugi-ryuu" ... Kenshin slides and then he replied "Amakakeru Ryu no Hirameki"... TOO COOL TO DESCRIBE!! It's like "No, it's not the style that beat the shit out of you, Bitch!!" ROFL!! You just have to see Shishio's face... man, that's priceless~! That monster has no fear or shock and when the ultimate technique is performed, he was just astonished beyond words. Nice move, Kenshin!

2. The thing between Kaoru and Kenshin
This is what I see very very Japan in this movie. I myself is a very expressive person, that is why I find Kenshin is a very intriguing person. There's this scene where Misao went to the forest to "pick up" Kenshin to fight Shishio who has "ruled" the town. The first thing he asked Misao was, "Kaoru-dono?". It is just so crystal clear that he can never wipe off Kaoru's image from his mind. He keeps thinking about her although in fact he has an important duty to study the ultimate technique, yes.. Kaoru is still on his mind. When Misao said Kaoru was found, he was trying really hard not to be all smiley about it... Instead, a very faint smile was formed somewhere in Kenshin's lip corner.. How expression-less.. I don't get it why he has to be like that? But but but... somehow as we all know, Asians don't really do PDA, so imagine if there's this split of gestures... we can be sure that they really mean it and it could mean deeper than it actually is~ Like... Kenshin and Kaoru doesn't have to make out to show the world that deep down they really care to each other. I find it amusing, really~ I mean, I am not used to people doing PDA all over the place either but still Kenshin and Kaoru's scenes just beautiful as they are. 

3. The sword case (cover)
Next is about the "saya" or the sword cover(?), not sure how to say it but you know what I mean right? I just realized that when Ken-san is fighting, the saya is always tucked safely at his "belt"... but I found one time when he faught with Shinomori Aoshi, he got cornered and he just left the saya somewhere... when he was finally done with Aoshi, he could exactly locate where he dropped his saya.. I just found it really amusing. If it were me, maybe the scene where I was busy searching for my saya would be humor of the movie. LOL
As a reference, below is the name of parts of KATANA (Japanese Sword)

source: [x]

4. The fighting scene
I must say the fighting scenes are very intense. In Kyoto Taika Hen, I adore the fighting scene in which Seta Soujiro breaks Kenshin's sword, the Sakabato.

gif source: [x]

I thought that fighting scene is beautifully taken but in this movie what I like most is of course the last fighting scene between Saito, Aoshi, Sano and Kenshin against Shishio. I can't deny it gives me shiver for it shows how strong Shishio is. In the end we are served with the appearance of the ultimate Amakakeru Ryu No Hirameki from Kenshin... Wow, seeing all these techniques in live action is just a great previlege for a long time fan ljke me. When I watched this for the first time I still could not grasp who actually did the ultimate technique... thinking that the four fighters attacked Shishio and killed him...after the second and third time watching I finally got it that the last fighting was meant for Kenshin to do the Amakakeru Ryu no Hirameki. 

Let's roll it up to number 4... maybe I can continue the blabs until 2834732 but I don't have the time now.. I literally write this one point in one time.. seriously~

Anyway, if you like Ruroken as much as I do, why don't you leave comments? I'd love to talk about this series with other fans :)



99 Random Questions

1: 6 of the songs you listen to most?
Lately? Humm... 
One Ok Rock: Mighty Long Fall
One Ok Rock: C.H.A.O.S.M.Y.T.H
One Ok Rock: Heartache
Yellow Monkey: Tactics
Mr. Big: Superfantastic
DoAsInfinity: Fukai Mori

2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
Now? Really? Kimura Takuya? ^^

3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.
... by Homer and Hesiod. This created a whole new situation. Now that... 
[Sophie's World]

4: What do you think about most?
Ummm.. what should I do to work in a more enjoyable way... and recently Satoh Takeru :P

5: What does your latest text message from someone else say?
I never text since forever.

6: Do you sleep with or without clothes on?

7: What's your strangest talent?
I recognize faces and smells of people even from years ago... 

8: Girls... (finish the sentence); Boys... (finish the sentence)
Girls are strong and powerful; Boys will be boys.

9: Ever had a poem or song written about you?
Yea, I guess :) It was a blog but won't tell you the link :P

10: When is the last time you played the air guitar?
Just now? HAHAHA

11: Do you have any strange phobias?
Oh God... this question. Sure! Phobia of ghost and caterpillar

12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
No. Why would I?

13: What's your religion?
Moslem body and soul ^^

14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
Visiting places, people-watching, just enjoy the ambiance!
15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
Behind, I think...

16: Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?
Some.. but now the one that comes in mind is One Ok Rock.

17: What was the last lie you told?
Saying that I already did something while I actually haven't done it.

18: Do you believe in karma?

19: What does your URL mean?
Umm.. it's a song of Casiopea band from Japan. I love that song, Asayake.

20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
Weakness: emotional, can't live under pressure
Strength: sympathetic, logical and fun

21: Who is your celebrity crush?
Seriously? Not only one but if it has to be one then Kimura Takuya.

22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping?

23: How do you vent your anger?
Writing mostly. Or tweeting? :D

24: Do you have a collection of anything?
CD, photobooks, small cute things, I like collecting cute things. Oh, and plushies!

25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
Phone is okay.

26: Are you happy with the person you've become?
Not yet, maybe I will one day.

27: What's a sound you hate; sound you love?
Sound that I hate? Ghost sound 
Sound that I love? Kimura Takuya talking, or Benedict Cumberbatch talking

28: What's your biggest "what if"?
What if I live and work outside my country?

29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
Sort of. Alien no!

30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.
Right: the office compartment
Left: nothing

31: Smell the air. What do you smell?
Air con smell :D

32: What's the worst place you have ever been to?
JAKARTA wherever it is.

33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast?
West Coast?

34: Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?
Are you kidding me? KIMURA TAKUYA!

35: To you, what is the meaning of life?
To prepare the after-life and to give love to Allah the Almighty

36: Define Art.
Something beautiful to the touch and feel and eyesight.

37: Do you believe in luck?
Yes, I do.

38: What's the weather like right now? 

39: What time is it?
1:17 PM

40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?

41: What was the last book you read?
Mortal Instrument. City of Fallen Angel. 

42: Do you like the smell of gasoline?
Yea. It's yum. Haha

43: Do you have any nicknames?
Goldfish (because my friends think I am easily amused)

44: What was the last film you saw?
Rurouni Kenshin: The Legend Ends (my 2nd time last week, will watch again this week)

45: What's the worst injury you've ever had?
A cut on my lower chin.

46: Have you ever caught a butterfly?
When I was little, when I had no idea what was it from...

47: Do you have any obsessions right now?
To learn either German or Japanese

48: What's your sexual orientation?
Straight? I am straight as a flagpole!

49: Ever had a rumour spread about you?
I have no idea.

50: Do you believe in magic?
Not really.

51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?
I guess so. I just cannot forget the mistreatment I received from people. 

52: What is your astrological sign?
Cancer? Crab!

53: Do you save money or spend it?
Speeeeeeeend! Hahah

54: What's the last thing you purchased?
Rurouni Kenshin poster and photobook and mousepad. I am screwed!

55: Love or lust?

56: In a relationship?
Too bad, no!

57: How many relationships have you had?
4 or 5. Not sure. 

58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
No. Who can? O_O

59: Where were you yesterday?
Ummm at a National Museum! ^^

60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
Yeah, my pen. Or is it fuchsia?

61: Are you wearing socks right now?

62: What's your favourite animal?
Cat and dog and maybe elephant. I lurve animals!

63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?
I don't have any.

64: Where is your best friend?
In Singapore and in Depok also in Borneo!

65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr.
I don't have any. Sorry!

66: What is your heritage?

67: What were you doing last night at 12AM?
Sleeping :P

68: What do you think is Satan's last name?
I dunnoo..

69: Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?

70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?
Sure I am!

71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?
Asking someone to help the dog and continue running to work!

72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?
a. Telling my parents
b. Live it with my parents.
c. I think so

73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love.

74: What's a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?
Many! But maybe Mighty Long Fall by One Ok Rock for nowadays favorite.

75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?
2711. Nice rite?

76: In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?
Trust and freedom!

77: How can I win your heart?
Awww... but you already do~

78: Can insanity bring on more creativity?
Could be! 

79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?
To get out from work and start a life at a foreign country with zero knowledge on the language.

80: What size shoes do you wear?

81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone?
Wow! My name? LOL

82: What is your favourite word? 

83: Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.
Heart break? Hahahaha.. so gloomy!

84: What is a saying you say a lot?
Can't remember now...

85: What's the last song you listened to?
Fukai Mori by Do As Infinity

86: Basic question; what's your favourite colour/colours?
Maybe Fuchsia and orange?

87: What is your current desktop picture? 
My baseball glove and signed balls. Hehehe

88: If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?
My boss

89: What would be a question you'd be afraid to tell the truth on?
I don't have any.

90: One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren't really doing anything, they're just standing around your bed. What do you do?

91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?
Mind reading! ^^

92: You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
Hmmm... maybe when I was in Korea, anytime.. maybe when I was on the beach in Busan. It feels refreshing and wonderful!

93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
My Senior Highschool time?

94: You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?
Casual sleep? Maybe Satoh Takeru because Kimura Takuya is already married.

95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
JAPAN! Or New York!

96: Do you have any relatives in jail?
Of course not! T_T

97: Have you ever thrown up in the car?
Yea. My dad's

98: Ever been on a plane?
Uh huh! 

99: If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?
Hi everyone :D


Letting you go... NOT!!

The pain is getting unbearable...
In the every sight of you, I can only confirm that you have gone..
Even beyond my sight I know things will be different, though you persist it won't
I rationalized the reason of my necessity of finding someone new.. but the thought of it sounds like a faraway thunder..
It's there but far..
Letting you go was a mistake because I could never do it..
I still think you might return
But you never do...
It hurts me for I thought I met you first
Yet you decided to be with her
Why is that?

A note for Benedict Cumberbatch 

This is what happened if you watch a movie with Ben in it. You just end up sobbing in the corner thinking nothing else matter since he's gonna get married pretty soon. He looks super gorgeous in the movie (Star Trek Into Darkness)... I know it was all acting, not the real him.. but that goddamn suit and voice must at least receive a glorious appreciation from all the people who watch it. While for me, I watched it on my room and I couldn't stop gawking and yelling everytime he is at the screen. He is really a fine man and Sophie, you are a very lucky woman. 



Forthcoming Commotion: Benedict Cumberbatch Will No Longer Be Bachelor

What is happening? The world is stop turning? Really? No... the world is in fact still turning although we heard the news that slashes like a sharp blade in a sudden.

It looks like a plain advertisement on a newspaper that no one would even care to look, unless they are searching for something (jobs, cars, etc). Here it is, the engagement news that breaks many girls' heart, including me. The thing is, my reason for crying is different.
I always see Ben as a portrait of a bachelor who doesn't bother about marriage or having kids, his life is all about fun and happiness, also parties. I always see him as a happy pill because I myself can never have such pleasures, the happiness he got from drinking, sex and all those mature things. Let's say I have a lot of restriction, therefore I see Ben as a person who knows how to have fun without worries. Sometimes we do that, you know. Instead of being jealous to other people, we enjoy the life we cannot have through someone whom we think able to get or to live in it. That is probably the way I see Ben. He lives without commitment. He likes kids but that doesn't mean he has to have one. He is like a person I look up to, for being so carefree and without commitment.
But now everything is collapsing.. I have to start to believe that someone has to marry in order to continue living. I lose my belief in seconds that one can also be happy without getting married because Ben will get married which means his life until now was not that happy, just as I thought. How can I deal with this?

I am not sad because he chose someone else instead of me. First of all, I never thought myself as someone holding potential to be his wife (even if he were not a celebrity, I still have many things to pass before marrying him in peace, see my complication already?). It is not about why he chose that woman, but it was about losing a firm belief... or something I've been trying to hold on to.
People get married, we know that. But George Clooney got married... and now Benedict Cumberbatch. How can these free-spirited people finally got their guts to enter marriage stage? Like how? My shock especially goes to George Clooney because he is a person who made a lot of statement that probably the last thing he wants to do is getting married, but he got married. Why?
If I can make conclusion now, those two people are tired of playing around being fool and all and now they decide to settle down and build families? Is that what exactly happen?
Congratulation then~



Kimura-sama (Part 1)

Do you have a person whom you think you always love even years after years... Who is it? I bet you have someone like this in your life. That can be real person, or can also be celebrity or anything. For me it has always been Kimura Takuya. My infatuation for celebrities come and go but for Kimura Takuya, it goes until now. I started to like him when I was in my 7th grade of junior high school. I saw him on a dorama entitled "Ordinary People". ​Since then I have watched a few drama with him... and I love all of them. 

Why do I like him? I am wondering about the answer because maybe I don't know why. If people think he is handsome... I really have to take a look again, because I think there are more people who look better who makes me went head over heels but then... poof~ the love is gone. To me he is not that smoking gorgeous or handsome... but I like his face. It's just cold, very manly but there's softness when he smiles. Isn't he a piece of heaven? *inserts tons of heart emojis*

​I'm actually in the middle of working, so ​this is some kind of time corruption but here we go.. LOL

About Kimura-sama, I always say something like this to my friend which sometimes makes them cringe.. LOL
"I'm gonna marry this man. If not in this life, then it's gonnabe in the next life (if there is any)."
I just think he fits into all the aspects that I want in a man. He doesn't have that six pack thingy, he's not that tall but not to tiny either. He has a very nice smile... Guh, his wife is probably the luckiest woman in this world. And to be honest I never heard any bad rumors about Kimura-sama regarding his marriage life. Isn't it a good thing...
Yet, if I position myself as his wife, maybe I really have to struggle not to be jealous because he always makes a good chemistry with his co-stars on movie/dorama. In additional, if I were his co-star in a drama, it would be really hard for me not to fall hard on this guy. I mean, it's Kimura Takuya... how can you get a chemistry without putting yourself right in the middle of the whirlwind.
Not mentioning those hot photos on An An magazine... if I were his wife, I would burn all the existing copies~ Oh God... see why I will never be able to marry him? ROFL

Okay enough with this craze... Back to work!!! 
Aaaand... I dunno if there will be Part 2 of this post. Just in case I wanna write about him in the future... because sometimes I have soooo much things to say. I have history with this guy, yet he never acknoledge it so... yeah! LOL #shutup

The picture above is his picture while he runs to our wedding party.