20131219

Always Be There by Browneyed Soul [Korean lyric - English translation]



[Korean]
계절의 틈 사이로 추억의 날들이
떠밀려와
말없이 웃어주던 널 생각나게 해
한 여름 햇살에도 그늘이 돼준
너의 위로가
다정하던 목소리가
너무나도 그리워
기나긴 침묵이 이별은 아닌지
Let me show you love
Let me give you love
조심스레 뒤돌아보면
늘 반겨주던 너

귀를 기울여 맘을 들어줘
조금 늦은 나의 고백을
지친 너의 하루 끝에 단잠이 될
널 위한 이 노래를
멀리 있어도 나를 불러줘
슬픈 날이 찾아오면은
언제라도 따뜻하게 안아줄게
너의 마음 가득히
Always be there

불빛 하나 없는 먼 길을 지날 때
Let me show you love
Let me give you love
늘 나란히 걸어주었던 널 항상
기억해

귀를 기울여 맘을 들어줘
조금 늦은 나의 고백을
지친 너의 하루 끝에 단잠이 될
널 위한 이 노래를
멀리 있어도 나를 불러줘
슬픈 날이 찾아오면은
언제라도 따뜻하게 안아줄게
너의 마음 가득히
Always be there

어두운 밤이 다가와 찾아와
마음의 등불을 환하게 비춰줄게
다시 웃어줘 내게 기대어
처음처럼 곁에 있어줘

귀를 기울여 맘을 들어줘
조금 늦은 나의 고백을
지친 너의 하루 끝에 단잠이 될
널 위한 이 노래를
멀리 있어도 나를 불러줘
슬픈 날이 찾아오면은
언제라도 따뜻하게 안아줄게
너의 마음 가득히
Always be there 

[Translation]

The space between seasons comes pushing the memorable days
The thought of you who makes me smile approaches without words
The sunshine of one summer day that also gives shadow, your consolation, your tender voice, I miss them all
This long silence is not a goodbye, right?
Let me show you love
Let me give you love
If I look back carefully
you always welcome (me)

Listen to my words attentively
My confession that is a little bit late
You, who is exhausted at the end of the day, was already sleep soundly
I made this song for you
Even if you are far away call me
When your day is sad
Anytime I will give you a warm hug to fill your heart
Always be there

When you go through a long journey
Let me show you love
Let me give you love
I will always remember you who always on my side


Listen to my words attentively
My confession that is a little bit late
You, who is exhausted at the end of the day, was already sleep soundly
I made this song for you
Even if you are far away call me
When your day is sad
Anytime I will give you a warm hug to fill your heart
Always be there

When one dark night is approaching, find me
I will light the lantern of your heart brightly
Make me smile again, wait for me just like the first time you stay by my side

Listen to my words attentively
My confession that is a little bit late
You, who is exhausted at the end of the day, was already sleep soundly
I made this song for you
Even if you are far away call me
When your day is sad
Anytime I will give you a warm hug to fill your heart

Always be there   

translated for BESoulmates@twitter.com

20131216

Rilord Cute!! 귀여운 뢀로 ㅋㅋㅋ


For a few seconds I really thought he is my friend >< 
/jingga

Translation: 웨딩 드레스 [Wedding Dress] by 태양 [TAEYANG]



니가 그와 다투고
때론 그 땜에 울고
힘들어 할 때면 난 희망을 느끼고
아무도 모르게 맘 아-아-아프고
니 작은 미소면 또 담담해지고
You argue with him and sometimes you cry because of him
When you feel sad I feel hope
My heart is aching without me knowing
but when I see a hint of your smile I become calm again

니가 혹시나 내 마음을 알게 될까봐
알아버리면 우리 멀어지게 될까봐
난 숨을 죽여 또 입술을 깨물어
제발 그를 떠나 내게 오길
You might seem to know my heart already
If you know it we will become further apart
I hold my breath and bite my lips
Please leave that person and come to me


Baby 제발 그의 손을 잡지마
Cuz you should be my Lady
오랜 시간 기다려온 날 돌아봐줘
Baby please dont hold that persons hands
Cuz you should be my lady
I have been waiting for you for a long time, please come back.

노래가 울리면 이제 너는
그와 평생을 함께하죠
오늘이 오지 않기를
그렇게 나 매일 밤 기도했는데
When the song is played you and that man will be together forever
I pray every night for today to never come

네가 입은 웨딩 드레스, oh no
내가 아니잖아
Oh, 네가 입은 웨딩 드레스
The wedding dress youre wearing, oh no
Its not me (who is with you)
Oh, the wedding dress you are wearing

내 맘을 몰라줬던 네가 너무 미워서
가끔은 네가 불행하길 난 바랬어
이미 내 눈물은 다 마 마 마르고
버릇처럼 혼자 너에게 말하고
I really hate you for not knowing my heart
Sometimes I wished misfortunes upon you
My tears is dry already
Its like a habit to talk to you (as if you are by my side) all by myself

매일 밤 그렇게 불안했던걸 보면 난
이렇게 될꺼란 건 알았는지도 몰라
난 눈을 감아
끝이 없는 꿈을 꿔
제발 그를 떠나 내게 오길
Everytime I saw this misfortune every night I never knew it is going to be this way
I close my eyes I dream of a never ending dream
Please leave him and come to me


매일 밤 그렇게 불안했던걸 보면 난
이렇게 될꺼란 건 알았는지도 몰라
난 눈을 감아
끝이 없는 꿈을 꿔
제발 그를 떠나 내게 오길
Everytime I saw this misfortune every night I never knew it is going to be this way
I close my eyes I dream of a never ending dream
Please leave him and come to me

노래가 울리면 이제 너는
그와 평생을 함께하죠
오늘이 오지 않기를
그렇게 나 매일 밤 기도했는데
When the song is played you and that man will be together forever
I pray every night for today to never come

네가 입은 웨딩 드레스, oh no
내가 아니잖아
Oh, 네가 입은 웨딩 드레스
The wedding dress youre wearing, oh no
Its not me (who is with you)
Oh, the wedding dress you are wearing

부디 그와 행복해
너를 잊을 수 있게
내 초라했던 모습들은 다 잊어줘
비록 한동안은
나 죽을 만큼 힘이 들겠지만
No ohhh
Please be happy with that person, so that I can forget you
Please forgot how awful I looked
Even if I am so sad, I feel like dying for a long while to come
No ohhh...

너무 오랜 시간을 착각 속에
홀로 바보처럼 살았죠
아직도 내 그녀는 날 보고
새 하얗게 웃고 있는데
I have been misunderstanding for a long time
Ive been living like a fool all by myself
I still think that girl looks at me
with new smiles in white (dress)


source:
lyric in Korean from gasazip
translation all by me


20131213

Taeyang Dream: Why?

I'm so upset this morning.. because I don't know whether the dream that I have is actually a nightmare or a nice one.. Do you know Taeyang, a member of a Korean boyband, BIGBANG? Well, lemme get this straight, I am not a fan of him, ok? I just like one song from him, entitled 외딩 드레스 (Wedding Dress), to the point that I can play it over and over, but that's it. No feeling or anything towards him, he's not my style, like at all.

This is his appearance if you want to know Taeyang, his real name is 동영배 (Dong Young Bae).


He is just ordinary type of guy with no special effort in make up to make him looking fabulous. He's adorable just being himself, his natural self. His eyes are so slanted, just like a normal Asian eyes should be, and he has such a sweet smile. 

Okay, enough about Taeyang, I will tell about my dream. The setting was in a place like hotel sort of, there are a lot of people there, including some Doosan Bears players (baseball team from Korea that I adore) and we are doing some sort of reality show, I am not sure what kind. We did things separately as I do have some sort of separate room interview and I don't know with others. I cannot remember anything being asked in the interview, all I know I was having trouble in some questions because I don't know what to answer. I was so devastated after the interview that I just throw myself at a sort of a bed in the middle of an open room, so basically anyone can just use the bed, it's not a private one. I just laid myself there, facing the bottom (freefaller position, you can Google this) or something like this:


All of sudden Taeyang just approached me, I just opened a bit of my eyes and then go back to close my eyes because I was not in the mood for talking. But somehow he sits next to me, comfortably put his legs on the bed and start talking. 
태: 인터뷰 너무 잘한다 (judging from the way he speaks to me, we already know each other before)
나: 그래? 안 그랬는데.. 인터뷰 넘 어렵다.. 대답 못했어 내가. 속상해...
태: 아니야~ 네 그런 모습 넘 좋다.. 
나: 뭐? 봤어? 어디? 어떻게 봤어? 아아아.. 창피해..
태: 밖에서... 티비 있는데.. 그 방 지났을때 널 봤어.. ㅎㅎ
나: 보지마 그냥~
태: 벌써 봤는데 어떻게 안보이게 해야 돼? ㅋㅋㅋ (he chuckles)



Actually my heart beat really fast thinking why he decided to stop and saw me doing the interview?
나: ... 너 스케줄 없어? 
태: 했어.. 다 했어.. 
.............
나: 응원했어 고마워~ 나두 니 노래 엄청 좋아거든... 
태: 정말..? He moved his fingers to my fingers, he really touched my fingers and I got more nervous. 
나: 어~ 외딩 드레스 그 노래 너무 마음에 들어
태: 슬픈 노래 그게
나: 알아... 근데 좋아~ out of nowhere I said something like.. 넌 날 좋아했지? 나두 널 좋아해.. 우리 사귀면 어때? ㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎ It was just a joke tho.. I mean.. bcos he likes my performance at the interview and I like his song... It was supposed to be a joke but he reacted differently. He holds my hand even tighter.. 
태: 진짜 사귀면 되? 그럼 사귀자 우리!!!
나: 뭐? 야... 그게 농담이야.. Why so serious?? Hahaha *fake laughs*
태: 난 널 좋아해... *still holding my hand*
I changed my position to face him better, he still holds my hand, and I put my head on a pillow... ready to lecture him. But he suddenly moves closer to me and yes.. 날 키스했어... I was so shocked, not able to say anything.. and then he hold my hand and we got out from there together, holding hands. 

We went outside to a small car and we went in together.. suddenly some Doosan players were around us and they are doing the same thing... I think it was supposed to be a competition that involves car. They say us holding hands and Choi Junseok teased us, "야.. 니들 사귀냐?" I looked at Taeyang and he answered firmly "어! 왜?" 

Then I woke up and realized it's all just a dream. I feel sad. I really thought it was super real but of course it was not. Taeyang is the kindest person in Bigbang. Does this mean I will get a super kind person as a husband? Hahaha

I actually have promised to myself that I will not allow myself to be involved in any romantic relationship, except marriage but when Taeyang was with me I feel like I will allow him to be my boyfriend. I just wonder, if someone really comes but he doesn't offer marriage but just relationship, will I take it which means I will break my own promise? I don't know. But this dream really makes me sad. Why happiness go away really fast? 

/jingga

20131210

Memaafkan: Bagaimana caranya?

Memaafkan itu apa sih? Sebenernya ini sesuatu yang sangat aku ingin tahu tapi belum mendapat jawabnya. Sampai 2 hari lalu aku menulis sesuatu di facebook, something like this:

Pas lagi glundung2 di kasur sambil dengerin Coconut Treez tiba-tiba terpikir satu sms permintaan maaf dari seorang yg kukenal. Permintaan maaf, via sms. 
Sopankah? Kalo menurutku minta maaf by sms itu kok kaya pengecut banget ya. Sama dengan mengungkapkan cinta lewat sms. Segitu takutnyakah akan reaksi si penerima permintaan maaf? Kalau begitu merasa bersalahnya, kenapa niat banget pas berkesalahan? 
Karena uda sms dianggap slese urusan? Pokoknya uda minta maaf? Kalo tujuannya begitu, ngapain minta maaf? Nggak usah juga ga ada pengaruhnya kok. Nggak bakalan mati si penerima permintaan maaf meski tanpa permintaan maaf setengah hati dari engkau. 
Permintaan maaf kok jadi protokoler gini ya? Hahaha... 
Jadi dimaafkan ato nggak? Hmmm.. jujur sampe skrg aku kurang paham sama arti memaafkan.. yang jelas sih selalu berusaha utk memaklumi, bahkan sebelum sms permintaan-maaf itu datang. 

Bukan mau sok bijak ya, Temans. Ini cuma sebagai bahan pembelajaran bersama, lebih baik kalo mau minta maaf ya langsung lah.. ato minimal telpon (kalo sang korban tinggalnya jauh di Alaska, for example). Memang serem ya pas kita melihat/mendengar apa yg dikatakan sang "korban", ya itulah yang musti kita terima ketika minta maaf. Kalau nggak salah kan nggak mungkin dibegitukan? Ya gak sih? Jangan cuma bisa jadi pengecut yang menghindari kemarahan orang lain dengan mengirim sms. Kesalahanmu itu, pantaskah hanya disampaikan melalui sms? Jadilah ksatria, akui kesalahan, minta maaf dengan tulus dan berjanji tidak mengulangi. Simple kan?
Well.. kalo emang takut banget ya gpp sih kirim permintaan maaf nan mendayu-dayu by sms, itulah alasan kenapa pathetic loser itu nyata adanya bcos they really do exist. We can't blame these pengecuts juga sih.. Dimaklumi saja~ Hehehe~

*jane pengen mbales sms //matio ae// tp malu sm martabat. Makan tuh martabat. Hahaha!! Akhirnya gak dibales sih. Didiemkeun saja *sambil di screencap trus disebar2 ke 2000 follower twitter buat diketawain bersama* LOL. Bercanda, Bro... rahasiamu aman di tanganku...
dan tangan2 followerku *mwahaha*

Iki kok malih dowo ngene sih~ 
Cuman mau sharing aja kok.. Selagi masih manusia, beranilah menghadapi apapun.. Gak beranipun harus diberani-beraniin. Dengan begitu mungkin kita bisa hidup dengan lebih lapang (?) tanpa merasa dikejar rasa bersalah. Yes?

My two rupiahs sih..

Terus ada seseorang yang menanggapi dengan serius~ XDD yang kemudian ku-PM

Bener semua omonganmu di komen terakhir.. the problem is.. you haven't answered the core question. Memaafkan itu yang seperti apa sih, Bro? 
Gini wes.. in my case, ada orang yg berbuat salah ke aku dan itu sangat menyakitiku parah. I admit there were lots of anger in the past, tapi as time goes by aku mulai bisa nggak marah ketika hal itu terlintas di pikiranku. 
Aku sdh mengikhlaskan sih.. mungkin memang takdirnya harus begitu tapi kalo untuk melupakan kok kayanya susah ya, Bro. 
Pendek kata, aku masih berusaha untuk bisa memaklumi hal itu dan berusaha untuk nggak marah tapi aku yakin ketika aku ketemu orang yang bersalah itu, mungkin tanduk setannya bisa tumbuh lagi. Hahaha.. 

Ribet kan? 
So, if you know how to perform this memaafkan thingy, sudilah untuk membaginya denganku. 
Deep down inside aku uda mikir "Fine, whatever. Let's say God saves me from worse misery in the future" tapi disaat lain "How dare you use me, fuckin son of a bitch!!! Go to hell~! Die! Die now!!"
Itu apa ya? 
Sumpah aku bingung sama kata memaafkan ini. Ato aku yang membuatnya susah dimengerti tapi kata memaafkan itu nggak segampang kedengarannya, Bro. Kayanya aplikasinya banyak gitu..
Bukan bermaksud ngengkel, bersikeras ato apa. Kalo pendapatmu make sense mungkin you really can save me for being such an ironic little bitch for myself. LOL
Bales pas gak sibuk aja. Maaf nambahin pikiranmu. Lha kamu njawabe serius yo tak seriusi pisan. Hahaha~ 

dibalesnya: 

Kalau memaafkan itu mungkin artinya, melepaskan beban. Kita tahu masalah itu ada di masa lalu, dan mungkin masih terasa di masa kini, tapi kita yakin itu tidak akan mempengaruhi masa depan.

Memaafkan itu simple. Dilakukan, kemudian dilupakan. Ya gitu aja udah, tidak perlu diingat sebagai hutang yg kita 'lepaskan' tanpa berbayar. Anggap sebagai bayaran ke diri sendiri, untuk mendekatkan diri pada Tuhan dan menaikkan derajat kita sendiri, mengakui bahwa kita terlau sayang diri untuk selalu terjebak dalam kubangan keburukan orang lain. 
Kalau emosi naik karena kita ingat hal yg telah lalu  itu wajar aja deh jeng, karena itu berarti kita belum melakukan sesuatu yg worthy untuk kita sendiri, dan manusia memang makhluk yg harus struggle untuk bersyukur

Yg perlu digarisbawahi waktu kita teringat dosa orang lain di masa lalu adalah: 1) jangan2 sy sedang mendzalimi diri sendiri dan orang lain pada saat SEKARANG dgn mencari2 kesalahan orang lain di masa LALU. 
2) mungkin ini berarti saya kurang bersyukur atas orang2 baik dan kebaikan yg saya punya sekarang. ini pertanda buruk saya punya kecenderungan memfokuskan hidup pada kelemahan org lain dan keburukan saja
3) jangan2 saya kurang menghargai dan memberi reward pada diri sendiri - sekarang lah saatnya saya fokus mengarahkan perhatian untuk mencapai sesuatu yg bagus untuk diri sendiri, dan berhenti bergelimang dalam kesengsaraan dan keburukan org lain

Kalau menurut agama memaafkan itu dibuat sederhana saja, kalau minta maaf yaa diberikan kemudian keburukan itu dilupakan. Sebagaimana kita mencintai, kita mencintai orang yaa cinta yg wajar aja ga usah dibuat kompleks. Cinta orang itu karena pengin dia bahagia, karena Allah, ga usah fokus pd kelemahan si kekasih. Begitu juga memaafkan orang bukan karena orang pribadi itu, tapi karena Allah juga kita memaafkan, kita hanya memcari ridha Allah, sedang mengenai kelemahan orang itu - itu urusan dia, saya punya hidup yg harus saya bahagiakan, dan akhlak yg masih harus saya sempurnakan

Hmmm... aku jadi binun~ XDD
Kok aku gak bisa ngertiin kalimat2 itu ya? Apakah aku yang dudulz? OTL

Buat dibaca lagi... 

/jingga

20131209

Thanks for the song recommendation, Jimi :)


[Kendrick Lamar]
Uh, yeah [3X]
Uh

We hurt people that love us, love people that hurt us
Hurt people that love us, love people...
I'm inspired, so get inspired

And so he said, why you gotta be so kind-hearted?
Why you couldn't be a con-artist? Why you couldn't
Why you couldn't be mischievous or just a lil' devious
the moment that we first started?
Why you never ask for nothing, just a lil' time?
Why you let me use yours cause I don't got mines?
Why you always lift me up when I'm completely giving up?
Or when niggas holler what's up, you give a dry response?
Why you giving me your last, knowing you ain't got it?
Why you always buy me something when you going shopping?
Why you tell me that you love me? Why you always thinking of me?
Want my company rather than going club hopping
Why you treating my momma like she your momma too?
Why you making promises that you'll forever do?
Whatever just to make me happy, wanting us to have a family
These are exactly the reasons why I cheat on you, sometimes

[Chorus: Kendrick Lamar (Javonte)]
We hurt people that love us, love people that hurt us
Hurt people that love us, love people that hurt us
Hurt people that love us, love people that hurt us
Hurt people that love us, love people that hurt us
(Sometimes I, sometimes I feel we share
nothing in common, it ain't fair
But where do we seem to fall?
Where do we seem to fall?
Tender love and care, once upon a time
Once upon a time, we was there)

[Kendrick Lamar]
And so she said, why you gotta be so mean to me?
Why you don't know what you mean to me?
Why you always playing games? Why I feel like you ashamed
out in public, curse me out and make a scenery?
Why you got other bitches rolling their eyes at me?
Why text messages popping up saying hi daddy?
Why you treat me like I'm nothing? Why you always at a function?
I be wanting to go out but you don't never ask me
Why you slip and say her name when we having sex?
Why you always assuming that I still love my ex?
Every time we get into it, I'm the one that's feeling stupid
You don't need me, you gon' leave me, that's your favorite threat
Why you never know how it feel to be lonely?
Why I feel I'm the last option after your homies?
Why you always gotta know that I will never let you go
even though you get violent and put your hands on me? Sometimes

[Chorus]

[Outro: Lamont Carey "She Says She Loves Me"]
She says she loves me, she says she loves me
so she clings to me even when I want to be left alone
But she's beautiful
Like sometimes when I have things on my mind, she's the perfect person to listen
and she only gives advice, she says when I give her a cue
She says she loves me
Like when I wake up in the morning
she's sitting on the edge of the bed with a plate of food, wanting to feed me
She says she needs me, she says she loves me
Or like when I'm stepping out of the shower
she's standing there with the towel, wanting to, wanting to dry me off
She says, she says she loves me
So instead of admitting that she has made another mistake
she says, she says she loves me
And I don't know about love