20091231

Alhamdulillah...


Dear Allah,
thank you for answering my prayer.
I LOVE YOU!!!

jingga

20091229

Within me...

Heartache
마음아뽀
Next month would be the month that decides my life. A life changing time. I should have done this before, but I believe it happens now for reasons. Only Allah SWT knows that, I never intend to find out though my curiosity drives me insane.
I’ve been hopeful. Too much hopeful. Believing that a miracle might happen and BOOM! my life changes in seconds.
I hold this hope tightly. I’ve never dreamt of anything like this before. Packing my things and transfer myself to the outer world which I know nothing about. Tons of worries hang on my shoulder, though it is not the time yet. I haven’t even got the decision.
I’ve been thinking about some things. Some things that might happen, and I am clueless about how to overcome or to be succeed. To win the battle of my own. I am must be out of my mind. Again.
My hopeful thoughts has driven liters of tears from my eyes. The fear of rejection has been there in front of my door. Knocking. Failure, though I experienced it a lot of times, seems to be unacceptable and heart-breaking. I am fragile, that’s not something new, but I want to be strong. As a woman. As a human. As His servant.
My prayer…
I believe I never pray this much in my life. Asking for a chance that might not happen in my life, again. Mid 2008, I was thinking to myself, why do I always leave the prayer room so fast, while the others are still there. They were asking, requesting, begging for something. And me? I just walked out that door, not needing anything beside the health of my parents and the happiness from my family. What about me? What is my request? What is my dream? What do I yearn for? Nothing. Until this time comes and Allah shows me that I need Him. I need Allah.
I’ve been arrogant, that’s the thing I won’t deny. But that day I confess everything, that I need Allah more than anything. I realize that Allah is the only way I can reach my dream. Allah is my source of life. Allah is my soul.
I asked Allah for forgiveness. For being cocky. For forgetting Him. Allah does not need me. I need Him.
I always love the way Allah embrace me back. Allah gives me this hope and deep down I know, Allah is the only one who can make it come true. It is so beautiful to know that Allah wants me back. Allah wants me to be His believer. I do believe in Allah. But never this much. I lay my life on Allah. I did what I could to reach my dreams and let Him decide the best thing for me.
In my prayer I told him over and over.
Ya Allah… please give me this opportunity. I beg you, please… You know how much I want to be abroad, no matter how, where, when. I’ve always wanted it since I learn my English for the first time.
Besides, I want to learn how to be responsible to my own life. I want to live with my own feet, try to cope with my own feeling, just to face life with the whole guts that I have. And of course, I am dreaming all the time to make my parents proud of me. That would be the bonus.
If Allah decides not to give me what I want, then… it must be the best for me. Lately, I can feel His enormous love for me. I’ve been bad, so ashamed to say this, but He took me back. He let me feel his Love again. I have to say, it is good to be loved, to feel loved. Thank you, Allah. I know, thank you would never be enough.
I just want to be strong on the day it is announced. I would do my best not to sulk or to question Allah’s privilege for it will only say one thing. Whatever it is, it’s gonnabe for my best.
Ya Allah…
I believe in you.
I put my faith on you with all my heart and soul.
Please forgive my whining and unthankfulness.
Please let me love you with all my heart and the strength I have.
You are the source of Love, Hope and Faith.
I LOVE YOU, and Love would never be enough.
Hugs,
Jingga

20091228

Enjoy it and dream on...



I have to admit that everything seems to be stressy lately. My office time, my wishful thinking and my craze towards this thing in my head. Yeah, dreaming is always allowed, but when dreaming has already taken control your life, then what is left is too much wishful thinking.

This is just me, who always got passionate about anything I heart. Lately, I’ve been dreaming too much and literally forget how to enjoy things. I think I have to go back to the start. I have to learn again how to enjoy things I am passionate with instead of chasing something uncertain. Life is enjoyment, and that’s what I am talking about.

I miss the day I watch those MVs with smiles in my face. I am longing for the day I laugh at those boys’ stupidity. I should have gone back to where I started.

If you don’t have any idea about what I am posting, neither do I. I won’t try to clear up the water, though… ^_^

How I LOVE TO BE THIS RANDOM!!!

Hehehehe…

Love you all!!
Love you WOONIE. You know I love you and I will find a way ^^
How I love to see you smile!!!

키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스 키스

*o*
mwah!
Jingga

20091217

my dream camera...


I am sooo drooling over this camera.
I want it so badly but the price is soooooooooooo... Augh!!!
Here is the review from here:

Mereka yang ‘meradang’ setelah hadirnya EOS 500D

2009 April 6
by Mas Gaptek

Canon sudah meluncurkan kamera DSLR EOS 500D dengan kisaran harga 10 juta plus lensa kit 18-55mm. Harga jual ini membuat 500D makin menjauhi arena entry-level dan makin merapat ke harga kamera DSLR kelas menengah. Tentu saja Canon mematok angka setinggi ini bukannya tanpa alasan, karena fitur full HD movie (terlepas dari frame ratenya yang cuma 20 fps) telah menjadi tag-line dari 500D ini, disamping sederet fitur lain seperti live view dan engine Digic 4. Pro dan kontra mengiringi keputusan Canon yang memberikan fitur movie di 500D, dengan positioning harga di 10 jutaan, tentu ada pihak-pihak yang ‘meradang’ baik dari kompetitor atau bahkan termasuk dari pihak Canon sendiri. Saya coba melakukan estimasi siapa saja yang penjualannya bakal terganggu dengan hadirnya 500D ini.

Pesaing dari Canon :

  • Nikon D90 : Sebagai DSLR pertama di dunia yang mengusung fitur movie, penjualan D90 bisa jadi terganggu oleh 500D karena dua hal : harga dan spesifikasi video. EOS 500D lebih murah dari Nikon D90, dan D90 hanya mampu menyuguhkan movie 720p sementara 500D sudah 1080p.
  • Lumix GH1 : Sebagai pendatang baru yang mengusung konsep Micro 4/3, Panasonic Lumix GH1 menawarkan solusi hybrid antara fotografi dan camcorder dengan sama baiknya. Masalahnya, biaya yang harus ditanggung konsumen untuk riset format baru ini membuat harga Lumix GH1 melambung di kisaran 12 juta sehingga penjualannya nanti akan mudah dipatahkan oleh 500D.
  • Olympus E-620 : Produk entry level yang disebut-sebut sebagai calon andalan dari Olympus ini bahkan belum masuk ke pasaran saat tiba-tiba Canon meluncurkan 500D. Dengan situasi seperti ini, Olympus bisa jadi harus merevisi target penjualan dari E-620 yang minus fitur movie ini.
  • Sony A350 : Dengan segmentasi kelas yang sama dengan 500D, produk unggulan dari Sony di kelas menengah bawah ini memang punya banderol harga di bawah 500D. Namun saya prediksi bisa jadi banyak orang yang rela menambah beberapa juta untuk mengambil 500D daripada Sony A350.

Dari internal Canon sendiri :

  • EOS 50D : Berbagi resolusi yang sama-sama 15 MP di keping sensor APS-C, 500D tampak seperti mini 50D namun plus fitur movie. Canon tidak tampak kuatir kalau penjualan 50D akan terganggu dengan peluncuran 500D, namun saya memprediksi bakal banyak calon pembeli 50D yang akan beralih ke 500D (kecuali mereka yang perlu bodi weather sealed, kinerja tinggi, viewfinder prisma, AF micro adjustment dan top status LCD). So, 500D saya yakini akan sedikit banyak merusak penjualan 50D.

Supaya artikel ini berimbang, saya sajikan juga prediksi akan produk DSLR yang justru bisa mengganggu penjualan dari EOS 500D :

  • EOS 40D : Inilah produk DSLR yang paling berimbang antara harga dan performa dan berada di kisaran harga yang sama dengan 500D. Bila bukan fitur movie yang jadi target utama anda, dengan harga 10 juta anda sudah bisa mendapat kamera DSLR yang sarat fitur, kinerja tinggi dan bodi yang kokoh tanpa harus menguras kantong terlalu dalam.
  • Nikon D80 : Produk DSLR Nikon paling populer ini masih tetap laris penjualannya meski telah dinyatakan discontinued. Dengan kualitas tinggi namun punya harga jual dibawah 500D, beberapa orang bisa jadi justru akan memilih DSLR lawas ini meski mungkin sudah semakin jarang ada yang jual.
  • EOS 450D : Inilah pesaing nyata dari 500D yang notabene adalah sang kakak kandungnya sendiri. Harapan banyak orang dengan hadirnya 500D justru turunnya harga 450D ke kisaran 6 jutaan sehingga tidak lagi harus bimbang memilih 450D atau 1000D. Dengan fitur yang lengkap dan sudah amat memadai untuk pemula, EOS 450D saya yakini akan membuat banyak orang lebih memilihnya ketimbang 500D.
  • Nikon D5000, produk Nikon yang ditujukan untuk menggempur EOS 500D

My comment:
When oh when... *sobbing*

my Cloud Prince


Real name: 김종운 Kim Jongwoon
Stage name: 예성 Yesung
Chinese name: 藝聲 Yi Xing
Date of Birth: August 24, 1984
Height: 178 cm
Weight: 64 kg
Blood Type: AB
Hobbies: singing, listening to music, sport, reading, watching movies
Cyworld: http://www.cyworld.com/ys1106ys (old usernames include: "cloud3424" - now owned by other users)
Casting: Starlight Casting System 2001
Member of: Super Junior, K.R.Y., Happy
First Appearance: November 1999, Chunan Gayoje Gold Statue
Member Since: the beginning.
Trivia Fact: Yesung is Catholic. He has a younger brother named Jongjin. Can't even drink one bottle of alcohol.

20091209

Taecyon... Temporary Heart Throbber



Dengan ini saya menyatakan bahwa saya adalah salah satu dari
segelintir orang sial yang terkena panah cinta Taecyon!!
He's my type of guy, despite the fact that he is a lot younger.
I've always fancy Bad Boy.
In a way, having them as a boyfriend would be a kind of new adventure.
Yet, I never had such kind of BF.
This Taecyon is actually not that gorgeous.
But his body language really shout aloud!!!
Everytime he looks at you, it seems like he wants to eat you alive!
Sexy!!!
This kind of guy, if he is targetting a girl, he would never stop until he can get her.
WILD!!
Love you, Taecyon!!

*but Yesungie is still my number one. I never get bored of him... ^^*

hugs, JINGGA

20091207

For you in plesters... LOVE LOVE LOVE


Dear Adhit my Love, my Princess, my Breeze…


I have learned that you have done so much lately, being too hopeful about something. I can understand that. It is so you. I know that. Your newest passion is overwhelming. You are always that explosive and obsessive. Sometimes your obsession drives you crazy, right? Calm down and listen to me…

Now the word FAILURE knocks your door, once again. I still remembered that rejection letter that you received 25th of November, 2009 just a day before you sent your application letter to Seoul. Indeed, you are a very strong person. You have proven me that you can pull yourself out of misery after a “NO”. I give you a standing ovation. Finally you gave a try for something that you are passionate about. I am glad about it.

Yet, this chance is not yours. Hey, don’t you remember that failure doesn’t mean the end of the world? Come on. I am sure you are stronger than this. Get up and stand up again. Run for your dreams!

I know you might be sad now. No, you are not sad, you are devastated, you are broken hearted, extremely disappointed and angry. Okay, I will give you a grief time for about a week, after that you have to be as optimistic as before, as cheerful as before, as notorious as before, as flirty as before, as brave as before, the words might go on and on, Darling... ;D
Don’t you think that I don’t see you get weepy everytime you think about this chance? You look outside the window and your mind start to wander the wishful thinking. I look at it every single day, until now you get another “NO” and you break down. It is okay, it is normal...

Now...
Look at the sky. Still blue? Yes, the sky is blue, but it doesn’t mean it’s in blue. The sky is blue which means it is not gonnabe rainy. Now, paint your heart light blue and smile. Feel the breeze that brushes your hairs. Remember that you always enjoy it? Go out and feel the touch of the breeze… and you know what? Although you are failed, the breeze is still as gentle as before, the sky is still light blue, and the sun is still shining. See? Failure doesn’t mean the end of the world.

Do you still want to weep? Should I dial Yesung’s number for you? Believe me, when he hears you sad, he will take the next flight to Indonesia to give you a warm embrace. That’s what you miss about him, huh?? Should I call him for you??? :D

Ah, your smile finally shines!!

Don’t be sad. That is not the only chance that you might get. Believe me there will always be other chances waiting. You just need to grab it.

Do you recall that Allah always gives what you want?? Sometimes Allah gives what you want in merely seconds, but sometimes Allah delay your wishes until the time is right. Maybe this time is not right for you. Trust me, the miracle will happen. You just need to pursue it.

C’mon don’t be sad. Don’t make Thynie, Urif, and other people who are hopeful to you feel sad. You have to stand up for them. Thynie had given her best to help you and you have given your best to write your letter. The letter is not bad, probably it is slipped somewhere and the committee did not see it. See, this is just a slipped chance. I am sure you will make it better next time. I promise you that Allah has provided you a nicer place. Maybe a place full of gorgeous guy? Hehehehe… don’t stop hoping for the best.

Dear Adhit, I love you. I love you so much. I know all the things that you have been longing for. Be patient. They will come after you when the time is right. It’s all merely about time. Always about time.

I hope you can learn much. I hope you can stand tall and never stop trying. You are the best and you know that.

Have a nice day and back to your cheerful life.

Love and hugs,
JINGGA

Ps:
This is a letter for you when you failed the scholarship. I hope you can smile reading it. I love you!!!
JEONGMAL SARANGHAE, ADHIT-SSI.. HIMNEYO!!!!